out of nowhere

Totally spaced out. Seem to be permanently exhausted in the evenings at the moment. But I think that's because it takes me so much more energy just to do 'normal' things. And I'm still really trying to push myself...got to keep going... (I feel like a song would be appropriate here, but I can't really think of one...! Insert Susie sad face instead...)

Almost had a panic attack this morning (not the best start to my week....) It was a little bit strange as it seemed to come out of nowhere. I was in my life drawing class, and I already felt light headed, then my breathing started going all peculiar (maybe it was the shock of seeing a rather old naked man in front of me...) My heart of course followed the trend of my breathing, and felt like it was going to burst through my skin. Luckily though, I recognised the signs. I listened to my body, got my arse out of the classroom sharpish and spent some serious time trying to control my breathing. 20 minutes later all was well. Still bloody horrible though.

xxx