Sunday, 8 January 2012

little miss confused

the feeling of being happy
It was only later in life that she found happiness and peace of mind.
adjective (pleased)
feeling, showing or causing pleasure or satisfaction
When I find myself puzzling over a word, my first point of call is always my giant dictionary (that mostly gets used to lean on when I paint my nails...) My brain gets so intense and confusing, I need a logical and concise explanation.
It seems strangely ironic that the definition refers to a female character...and this happiness is linked to peace...But hang on a minute, she 'found' happiness? Where did she find it? Please dictionary, you're only telling me half the story here. If there is a secret magical place stuffed full of happiness then I would really like to know about it.
I'm wittering quite a lot today, and I'm not entirely sure what my point is. Actually, I don't think I have one. I'm mostly just really confused. I know happiness does exist. And I'm lucky enough to have a past full of happy memories. I just can't imagine that my future will ever be touched by happiness in the same way. Its so long since I've felt happy I'm starting to doubt its existence. I know it was there in my past, its not in my present, so how can it ever be in my future?


  1. oh and my computer is being an idiot and wont let me do paragraph spacing which is really stressing my brain out.....
    must step away now....

  2. I suppose it can't be defined *where* happiness was / is to be found since different thinks please different people, I guess.

    I do the same with words, though. In my head I know exactly what something means but can't quite verbalise it satisfactorily. So Wikipedia and online dictionaries are often randomly referred to.

    "When it is dark enough, you can see the stars."
    - Persian proverb

  3. Thanks for the great idea of looking things up in a dictionary. I had never thought of that.
    Will be doing so in future.

    Take care,

  4. love that persian proverb!!xx