So its New Years Eve Eve, and I cant seem to shake off the dark cloud hanging over my head today.
"Cheer up!" says one person.
"Remember all the things you have to be grateful for!" says another.
People, please take note, these are possibly some of the worst things you can say to anyone who suffers from depression. Mainly because I would like to cheer up, but today its just too far to reach. Also remembering all the good things in my life, just makes me feel even worse for being so low. It just makes me feel guilty.
So I just have to go with it.
Have some space, smoke some cigarettes, eat a few twiglets and just be me.
On the plus side, Christmas seems to be one of the only times of the year when its acceptable to go for a nap any time of day. I'm taking full advantage of this yuletide pleasure and I've already had 2 naps today....
The fact that the New Year is slowly creeping up on me isn't helping my brain at the mo. Its never been my favourite celebration, and the black dog likes to use it to remind me of all the things that I still can't do, or haven't achieved. Sneaky bastard.