darkness

Feeling particularly useless this evening.

 My brain feels frazzled, and my body is empty.

I hate feeling like this.

I'm tired of feeling like this.

A never ending dark tunnel.

Lost.

Trapped.

It seems so much worse because I think I should be on a high, as I've had a few days with my lovely friends.

All weekend the black dog has been biting at my ankles. I've had to kick him away, give my self little bits of space, and try and use my mantras to control him.

But now, I have lost all control.

I just want to change everything.

Change my life.

Change this situation.

Change me.

Hate this.

Hate me.

Hate hate hate.

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