Very thankful that I had a lovely visitor and a walk today, because this day seems to have gone on forever. So long. I can't stop clock watching. I'm not even waiting for anything to happen! Irritating. Irksome. Frustrating. I've been awake since 5 this morning (apart from a little mid morning nap) and I can't believe I have an entire evening to get through before I can crawl into bed again.
So tired. So restless. I want to run around the garden and scream and shout but at the same time I just want to lay down in the grass and sleep forever. My mind is constantly whirring. I tried to do some organising/tidying earlier, thought it may help get rid of some of my restlessness. It didn't. I just felt overwhelmed.
I just feel like I'm existing. Not living. Just surviving.
Totally useless. A waste.
A totally useless waste