I have neglected my blog for quite a few days now.
But fear not.
I am still alive and typing away.
I also have quite a large red mark on my arm as I have to keep pinching myself.
You see, a very special friend of mine is visiting from the states, and I still can't quite believe that after 3 years apart, we have been reunited.
I also cant quite believe how much I have achieved over the past few days.
Although I'm somehow still managing to feel like a failure.
And constantly racked with guilt.
Had a few bits of scary news today, luckily I managed to sneak in an emergency Valium. Phew. I'd been saving it up and now I'm a little spaced out....
But that's OK...
So many conflicting emotions going on. I think I should stop thinking about them, because the more I think, the more confused I feel.
Think think think.
I need to stop thinking!